Have Not Been Blogging for a while

Yes. I have not been blogging. Interestingly, I never liked blogging but I felt there are so much thought about this faith of mine that I felt very strongly to blog so that my 2 children will see how their father struggles with questions of the faith. I wanted also to put down important doctrines which i find so often time not dealt with in the church and my thoughts and reading from this beautiful book the bible.

Enough said. Amy is not getting any better. Her stomach area is so indented that she looks like she is six months pregnant. How i wish it is but it is not. Her liver had caused the stomach area to ballooned.

She seems prepared to go back home to Abba, but I am not prepared to let her go. Two Fridays ago, she mentioned that she heard a voice saying " Are you ready to go home?" I came out from the bath looking at her. Her eyes were huge and scary like she saw something evil. I notified her sisters thinking that her time is up, Unfortunately it is not (Heaven is definitely a more beautiful place), pardon me, i am wishing her to go but seeing her suffer is more miserable for me.

Her condition had gotten worst and she is not able to clean herself much and her reliance on her morphine is every 4 hourly. Yes even at night.I have to wake up to feed her. I have to help bathe her and also clean her after she is done with her toilet business. (I am not complaining) in fact i think these actions are to show her that I love her very much. Hopefully she sense it. :)

3 days ago, I heard a voice in the bath room when i was bathing. " Bath and clean yourself, pray in the spirit and after bathing, go lay your hands on her, pray in the spirit and be positive." I have been doing just that for the past 3 days.

I am still believing him to heal Amy.