Who papa really lost.

To IZ n Cake, As I journeyed on alone without mummy, I stumbled, fall and get hurt many time. Through the hurt I come to remember who mummy really was and how she had so deeply impacted my view of thinking of starting another relationship. As i looked back, I remembered that she is a very humble, sacrificial, gentle, submissive, and loving women. 1) Humble - Eventhough mummy was alot smarter than papa in terms of studies; she had a 2nd upper honours when she did her business degree in NUS, she was on the dean's list, she never belittled papa. She never ever looked down on papa eventhough she is earning more than papa. That makes papa worked even harder but unfortunately when papa salary reached there mummy is gone. :( She never go for branded stuffs, always concern about our income. 2)Sacrificial - She sacrificed her time for both of you when you were young just to allow papa to have more sleep as papa's worked sometimes 2-3 days without sleep due to server migration work. Even with her cancer causing problems she still love you Kate very much. She is one working mother and Papa can only do little to help by being her driver.:) But papa never take her for granted, i also helped her with both of you. We both believe work is important, but it shall not take precedent over our relationship. Work should not be at the expense of family or our personal time. She will always check if everything is alright with papa eventhough she is busy at work. Both of you can use smses for that. But often time she calls. 3) Gentle- Sometimes she wanted papa to do what she wants. But she just know how to get to the man's heart. She just gently smile. :) She never gets angry, eventhough, papa used to get angry but her gentle smile always calms the soul. She will come along side to hold my arms tightly, to show how much she needs me to be her support. This makes me willing to die for her. She will just come and massage my back when i come back late from work. 4) Submissive- If we ever quarrel or argue, she never held back her sorry. Sometimes even if papa is unreasonable, she will be first to say sorry on her part. This is to keep the relationship very alive. It never takes a long time because she cherish papa and not wanting to lose my attention or quarrel with me. This makes me love her even more, so much more to the extend when she gone home, papa felt half of me is gone to be with the Lord. :( Papa has a bad temper, but mummy changed papa, she made papa to be even more submissive to her because of how she cherish me and submit to my leadership. She nevers tell me how she sacrifice for me because she know i sacrifice for her too, but i saw it all. Then again, she just simply smile. :) Loving- She just don't like to not talk before we sleep at night. If she knows that i am sick, she will call home to check how am I. Interestingly, this happens even in courtship. :) She knew very well SMSes doesnt count because the heart is not there.She will go the extra mile to do things for me even if it mean sacificing her own personal time. Both our own weekly agenda will have each other first before other activities. I love her even more because of how she treats me. She never take my love for her for granted. She always put me behind the Lord Jesus. Our life basically revolve around each other. I would say eventhough IZ and Cake when both of you came into our life, mummy loved both of you but she never neglected papa. There is no scence of selfishness on her part. Whether it is courtship or as a wife. She will always think of papa before herself, putting papa before her plans, before her activities. To papa, this is loving papa and showing papa respect as a boyfriend or husband, that I am so very important to her. I am so so blessed to know her and have her as my wife and confidente. I prayed last time that God shorten my life to give her more life because papa is not important, mummy was. The reason for this blog is To IZ: Please use mummy as a standard to find a wife.But be smart, look for a good christian girl who will submit to you.Based it on Ephesian 5. To Kate: Learn to be like mummy. But be smart, look for christian boy who will love you sincerely and sacrifice for you. To IZ n Cake, try not to rely on technology to communicate. Things like smses, email are bad for communication. The best old fashion way is to go to somewhere to talk to build relationship or use the home phone or hp. If there is any conflict, confront it, talk to each other. This will definitely build your future relationship and it will stand on solid rock.