Moving On

It had passed 2 months now since Amy's home calling. It is tough struggling without someone who is so much of a help, emotionally, spiritually, physically and also financially. I am very happy that both Kate and Isaac are sleeping with me in the same room at night for the past week. It helps remove my loneliness at night when i have to go back home after work to an empty bed.

It is wonderful that I can fulfill my responsibilities as a steward as God blessed me with these two lovely children. It is not easy to get Kate to come sleep in my room as she had been sleeping with her grandparents ever since Amy had been diagnosed with cancer. Amy had a port-a-cath near her collar bone which can be painful if knocked upon.

I will try to leave office on time as i believe I have my parental obligation to fulfill since i have given 8 hours of the best part of the day for ministry and for those people who are jealous or who has a mental block up there, go get a life! I am guggling with 2 ministries. I am a single father here!

I have been doing the basic things once I get home from work. Bathe them everyday, plays with them, read with them, feed them and put them to bed at 9pm. Weekend will be family time. I am sure Amy will be proud of me up there. :) I am slowly learning to become a better father and mother by the day.

Kate and Isaac have been missing their mother in recent days. Asking me for mummy. Papa is feeling more painful but as often as not, I holds back the emotion. Isaac looked up to the sky when grandma mentioned about heaven. He remarked " I did not see mummy, where is mummy?" grandma was crying when she told me that. Kate just asked me yesterday "Is mummy in a box? Can papa please bring mummy out?" I just divert those questions away by distracting her.

Jesus Christ had been my strength and hope these two months. Thank you Lord! Thank you for showing me that You are in control. Thank you for saving a classmate soul and that he is now a faithful follower and I am so glad to meet up with him. Thank you for answering my prayers for my children. Thank you most of all for filling the void in my heart. Love you!