Praise You in the Storm

Dear Iz and Kate,
It had been a long time since papa have a chance to play the guitar alone and sing praises to God. The tips of all my left fingers had already turn soft. :( Ouch! Painful. " You should know how long i never play the guitar. As both of you are away to Canada with Ah gong and Ah ma, I am all alone in Singapore. As two days ago, papa was away in Vietnam for business trip, i was thinking about both of you. I was alone in the hotel room missing both of you badly. Thought ran through my mind about the constant flying and also when i am in Singapore i did not spend much time with both of you. Maybe Papa had put my pirorities wrong, having to balance so many things, some not even allowing me to share on the blog. Do remember to ask me when u are reading this blog and i will explain to you where did most of my evening went. All i can say is I am sorry to both of you for not spending enough time. If only both of you know the reason, you will understand how papa feel.
As i am playing the guitar and singing "Praise you in the storm" it is so painful. - For HE gives and takes away. I was crying, thinking about my life. The pain which cuts so deep. As mentioned i cannot elaborate, please ask me if you have the opportunity. :( Hopefully, I am not back home with Jesus. :)
Uncle Nat, taught papa something sometime ago on Love Language. It is about the book he read about knowing your partner's love languague, your spouse love language. It means what is important to him or her. For eg. Mummy's love language is she wants papa to be commited to her, to kiss her and hug her, to always assure her that i will never leave her because of her hair thinning problem then she knows that she is loved. Papa's love language is I need someone to be near me physically, someone who is willing to sacrifice for me, that is my love language. So now both of you know how i feel when i am alone. When loneliness creeps in to me in the night, when I come home to a empty bed. Thank you IZ for occasionally wanting to sleep with me. :) It helps PAPA. Kate maybe you are too young to know. Please learn to understand your partners love language so that the chances of breakup will be minimal.
Both of you are enjoying yourself in Canada right now, but your poor papa is all alone. I do hope both of you or maybe others who is reading the blog will not have to experience loneliness. All alone without love, without someone to talk to and only to talk to my Father in heaven. It is very painful, very sad, very tormenting. People who don't understand will never understand the feeling. It is similar to when Mummy was with me and suddenly she left to be with the Lord. That taught me to cherish and love people around me. To sacrifice for what i believe in and not just take things for granted. Everyone deserves to be love by someone so please don't grow up hurting and playing with people's feeling. If both of you found someone who really love you and you love them please grab each other tightly. Don't take the person for granted. I never regreted loving mummy or not giving mummy enough love. Just like Ah gong and Ah ma, they love each other even though papa and uncle nat grows up and have our own family, they still love each other. :) Always remember that love for each other will have to take precedent over the children. Not children over your spouse. I still do pray daily for Iz, Kate and my friend's girl that all three of you will find someone who will truthly love and sacrifice for you all. May our loving heavenly father watch over you and keep you safe in His loving arms.

Papa Joe.